Seriously Thinking
I'm sitting here at 6:10 in the morning thinking serious thoughts. I have to decide what's important to me. I haven't slept. I need to work this out in my mind. I keep trying to weigh the pros and cons of the situation and I'm not sure that I can see them clearly. It might be the lack of sleep or it might be the confused muddle my life has been for so many years now. The only sure thing in my life is my child. Nothing else is permanent. Not in my soul. I need more than that. I need more of my life to be real and permanent. I need to know that I can make it through my life forever without feeling too much regret.
I have the feeling I'm rambling. I can't think very straight and I keep making silly spelling mistakes. My hands are hurting from typing and knitting today. I think I feel like trying to sleep. I'll try to save this post first, I might just have the strength left.
