Looking over "Green Dress" I suddenly realized that in later pages I called "Ben" "Danny". I like "Danny" better. So, I went back and changed every "Ben" to "Danny". Sorry for the confusion.

Also, I realized I used a lot of titles and names that I really don't want to have to remember to change to something that I really don't like to begin with. So. . . I went back and used underlining for names and titles. Shouldn't be too hard to remember to use "____" for things I'd have real problems actually using. (Fingers crossed.)

Adding, at least, two pages of "Green Dress" to the site tonight, before I try to get some sleep. Wish me luck.

I'm alright, though. Planning on getting the rest of "Green Dress" up -- here or at Tumblr -- over the weekend. That should be a hoot, since it's basically the same thing, just in a different way.

Please leave me feedback on the new stuff. A piece tentatively entitled Previous Story is something I'd like to revise. Let me know if you think it's worth it or not. (Currently in scattered pieces in Notebook Notes. Hope to get it put in order and in one place by the middle of next week. Maybe sooner.)

Previous Story had a lot of "land mines" in it. By that I mean it was written with actual names of actual people.  I've (hopefully) edited them all out, but I'm terrified I'll miss one and get a bizarre e-mail telling me just where I can go and how fast.

(Previous Story isn't a "true" story, in any sense of the word, but I was writing it when I was in a certain emotional state and . . . )

Anyway, I'm here. I'm working. I'm writing. I'm thinking. No time to do anything else. (Isn't that enough?)

No, I did not finish loading the Notebook Notes the other day.

Why?

Because I lost the notebook.

In my defense, my work area is more rightly called a disaster area. Boxes and bins and toys and bits and pieces.

This morning I was going through one of the boxes and found it, where it had slipped down and been covered up by a ton of other stuff including another stack of notebooks and a small box.

Anyway, I will endeavor to upload the rest of the Notebook today at some point and maybe another couple of pages of  "Green Dress".

Seeing, however, that I am currently in the midst of a massive allergy -- I wouldn't call it an attack, better to call it an offensive -- I might not get finished with anything today. Trying, but who knows.

Tomorrow is Mother's Day, so that means I have to talk to my mother Again Tomorrow! For all of you out there with Super Terrific Perfect Mom's who love you more than they could ever love anything or anybody I think it's wonderful that you have an extra day that you can thank her for all the wonderful things she's done. But there are those who could do without an extra day to have to talk to our Barely Kept Us Alive Because If She Didn't She Would Have Gone To Jail For Negligence or Whatever Mothers and have to act like we think they are the best thing since chocolate because they birthed us into our individual Hells.

Thanks, again, whoever invented this holiday. I can't wait until Father's Day.

(I think I may be way too sick/tired to do this. I didn't sound too abrasive, did I?)

Yes. I've been working.

Notebook Notes is up and I'm at least part of the way through. (Even a link. Hah! See!)

Anyway. I'll try to finish up at least "Dream Story" by tonight.  (I'm bored. So?)

I'll post, again, when I'm finished with the whole thing, which shouldn't take too long. Maybe by tonight. Tomorrow for sure.

This is just the first of . . .well, a lot. Maybe have everything up by the end of May. (Don't hold me to that. I'll try but . . . well, you know me. Sort of. Right? Never mind.)

Taking a Minecraft/twitter/facebook/google+ break and maybe a walk in the grass/feel the sun on my face break. Back soon.

Spent the wee hours (just after 2) of the morning looking through old notebooks, trying to decide what to add to the site and how. Couldn't make myself decide. Now it's 4 in the morning and I've decided. Putting up a new section, called Notebook Notes and transcribing or describing each page. No deciding what to leave out or what to edit. No leaving anything out (except a name that will be edited to a blank and part of a story that I once wanted and don't think I do anymore) and no editing (much).

So, the first Notebook Notes will be from a notebook that I was working on -- brace yourselves -- in 2002. Some pages are even dated. This thing was buried in a box in the garage in Ohio or I would have destroyed it back in October. (But that's neither here nor there.) There will be more -- maybe some from even earlier. (I found a few pages from a notebook I kept back in the late 80s early 90s. They date from long before the current stage of my life. -- But I digress.)

Anyway. . . look for the new link to the right. (I'll add one to this post later -- if I remember.)

I've been trying to get them in some sort of order.

Decided to add some -- rather randomly -- to the site. Just to say I've done something.

If you see something you like leave a comment or drop me a line -- remembering how often I read my e-mail -- and I will see about adding to it.

Got a bunch of e-mails about Teddy and Doc. Listen, folks. I really would love to work on that story -- as well as the Damn Novel -- but I lost all heart for it a couple of weeks ago. (Didn't think things that I knew were coming would hurt so badly. You never really know until it hits you. Do you?) Might come back to it after some time. I hope I will, but it will take time.

Anyway, that being said,  I am just gonna add a few new pages. Links will be forthcoming -- possibly in a new post.

Might as well get on with it.

The good news is that I've gone through about 15 years of notes and half finished stories since we got here. (Not much else to do, until I get to feeling better.) So, there will be new pages full of entertaining, interesting, blah-blah-blah starting . . . maybe tonight.

The Damn Novel is not finished and might not ever be finished, now. I'm finding my motivation has become disconnected (by recent events) and that I would really like to strangle the muse that brought me the thing in the first place.

Gonna let it lie for awhile and hope time changes my feelings about the thing.

Planning on at least two new sections by tomorrow afternoon. I'll let you know when I get them up, you let me know what you think.

(If you want a hint at my inner turmoil check out my -- several -- tumblr sites. Links at the top of the sidebar will send you to see my innards -- if you can read between the lines. Don't judge me. You've been through it, too and you know it.)

I know that I wouldn't be who I am if I didn't think about some of the things that I think about on a daily basis. So, I've come to the place, in my life, where I can accept these thoughts and I've even learned to use them to help me in my writing and other creative endeavors. Also, learning, day by day, to use them to help me make it through the days when I don't think I can. Rarely feeling like I'm living inside a deep dark hole, anymore.

Anyway, just felt like a bit of an update over here. I've been here everyday for the last few, for at least a few minutes and it feels like it's done me a little good. A little here. A little there. It's all helping to make things better.

1) It is a VERY rough, first draft. Actually pieces and bits of a VERY, VERY rough first draft. (And I believe I explained this somewhere on this site before.)

2)No. It is not based, in any way shape or form, on any true occurrence. I base my characterizations on a mixture of many different persons -- based on pure inspirational value. I do no research. It isn't that kind of book.

3)I'm not sure. I probably will, maybe not today. (Let's call this one a Random non-reply.)

That having been said, I did, indeed, get a bit more of the draft up on the site in the wee hours. -- Starting just after midnight.-- So, if you're coming to check, click on Novel Bits <--- here or likewise in the area to the right of this post -- under I Do Write. There you will find at least a couple of new links to pages newly added.

Thank you, so very much, for your kind consideration, and good day.